isk isk : (

dhla esk ada exam pg, MIP xsiap lg.

individual webpage pn xcomplete lg.

smue xsiap lg la!

tensionnye, now kt library 'bermain' dgn director MX and photoshop and dreamweaver.

rase nk nanges pn ada nieh.

uwaaaaaaa.......:((

seadanya aku

Tak dapat ku kotakan

Seperti yang sudah-sudah

Bagai memetik butir bintang

Yang jauh tampak terang

Tak sanggup ku mungkir dalam sayang

Tak mampu ku berikan

Mimpi di luar jangkauan

Terimalah yang setulusnya

Aku di depan mata

Seadanya aku manusia

Aku peraih kasih sayang

Rindu pada ketulusan belaian

Engkau yang mendamaikan rasa ragu

Dengan cinta tak seperti dulu

Istana yang ku bina

Biarpun kali kedua

Terimalah yang setulusnya

Aku di depan mata

Seadanya aku manusia

Aku peraih kasih sayang

Rindu pada ketulusan belaian

Engkau yang mendamaikan rasa ragu

Dengan cinta tak seperti dulu

i had a wonderful day with them! :))

smlm mmg rase agk stress dgn keje,esp assignment dr krish yg kne submit and present this tuesday. dh 3 kali tuka soalan,kjap nk ambik soalan 1, pastu tuka ke 2 plak n finally end up stick with soalan no.1 n the person who i wanted to interview is acik halim, my uncle. he's working as a councilor at MBPJ. alang2 tido rmh dia tu, ptg td kitorg g ioi mall n celebrate bday acik liza kt nandos. dhla kelam kabut cari cake kt secret recipe sbb sy n syira nk kejar mase utk mkn n tgk papadom pkl 4.35. while acik halim, acik liza n aisyah dh kt nandos da. hahaa. nsib baik smpat mkn. finally, tercapai hajat sy utk tgk papadom, sgt best crite itu! tp sy tgk dgn syira jela while the aciks g jalan2 kt dlm mall. plg best skali, kitorg dpt ticket discount sbb the guy yg jage counter tu is the crew leader. so dia guna dia punye staff discount. gila best!haha!mengapa kitorg dpt discount??ada la sbbnye..huhu..kne pndai main mata beb..hahahahaa...(gurau je)

aisyah

aww sweet!:)

keje wajib kami

* currently, tgh mempertimbangkn offer dr acik utk keje kt MBPJ cuti sem nie. plan nk keje kt shah alam je, tp gaji kt MBPJ mcm best je. huhu!

recalling

went to PTAR 4 juz now, which is located at faculty of engineering.

i suddenly remember sumthing.

it happened last sem, at that engineering tower.

where it was one of the sweetest memory we had together.

*sigh..i miss that moment.

eughhh, stupid u jaja.

u should erase it from ur mind!

sakit hati sial

ehh, macam babi la..ingat aku nie betul2 lesbian ke??narrow minded btl laa..pastu nk perli2 ape hal,ckp depan2 sudah..kitorg saje2 je berjiwang2 mcm la korg xpenah ckp i love u kt kaum sejenis korg kan..gurau2 je kot,yg duk fikir aku betul2 lesbian ape hal..aku tau ar benda tu dosa, heyy aku nie bernafsu kt lelaki jela eee geram3!!!klw aku nie lesbian,xde la aku duk frust nonggeng si mamat tu dh ada gf baru..xdela aku nk tido peluk baju hitam tu n xdela aku nk letak bnda alah tu kt kad matrix aku..eeee..tlglaa..sumpah sgt2 narrow minded dr aku yg tggal kt kmpg nie haa..sgt tak best betul la org2 itu..

*sigh.....

entahla..mcm2 perasaan yg bermain dlm kepala sy skrg..

penat..sedih..confused..

smua yg negative laa..

kdg2 sy rase yg sy nie sgt lemah, xberdaya menolak perasaan itu..

nak2 lg skrg mmg tersgtla bz dgn asgnment, n final exam lg 2 minggu rasenye..

i know i've been doing so bad this sem, and my life has been very miserable lately..

hmm..ntahla,sy sendiri xtau ape yg sy tulis nie..

weeeeeee~

"ayong cepat siap jap lg kitorg smpai"

juz got the msg from angah, my 2nd sister..so now tgh kemas2 nk balik rmh..xsbrnye!nk peluk mum kuat2..klw rase nk nnges, nk nnges kt riba dia..i'm sorry if sy balik rmh nie ada menyusahkan org lain..cthnye, esk group forum sy xdpt nk present la bcause lack of a member..n sy pn tau now it's not a suitable time to go home because we have tonnes of works to do..maafkan sy..sy balik bkn utk saje2..sy balik bersebab..mau pulihkn smgt sy nie..ok la, nk smbung kemas balik..

bye bye!

rembau, here i come!:))

: )

enough for me to say, i am smiling back people..:)

thank you to the cure..

you know who you are rite..

at last, i can let him go..dgn sng hatinye..

mengape??ada la sbbnye..

though it's still hurts but i'm trying to move on here..

sorry guys, pintu hati ini sudah tertutup utk sape2..

for now, let the heart keeps those memories..

eyhh mlsla mau tulis byk2,nnti encik 'guess' tu menyibuk je..

thanks for those people who have been supporting me, i really2 appreciate it..

and to my family too, esp mum..i know she's been praying for me..

call sy hari2 n tnye khabar sume..i love u mum..

how i wish i can be as strong as you..

esk balik rmh,yeay!

* cant wait for ezzah to come to my hz this saturday..nk g jalan2 kt taman tasik ahh..huhu..

my cute blushing friend.

dia nie mmg suka bwt sy blush and sy lg suka bwt dia blush..hahaa..

the second pic dia tgh cuba nk cover pipi dia yg chubby + blushing ouh ouh sy sgt geram tau..hahahaha...ampunkan i ash!huhu!;p

whatever

this is my blog and i can write whatever i like selagi tidak menyakiti hati sape2 or tidak menyalahi undang2 mcm blog si azwan ali tu..if you, you, and you (anyone) tak suka ape yg sy tulis kt blog nie, go to hell..if tak suka jgnlah bace eeee tak faham tak faham..pelik pn ada..

hanya sebuah mimpi...

semalam, sy bermimpi yg sy pergi ke kubur arwah moyang sy..

i called her onyang..

she is my great grandmother..

i had been living with her since i was born till the end of her life,when i was 14..

i was her favourite great grandchild, sy masih ingat lg time skolah dulu if mum bg duit blanje, arwah akn bg double..hihi..

and, juz after my mum got married with my step dad, i slept with arwah..

seriously,sy sgt rindukan dia..sgt2..

mungkin mimpi smlm,ada petanda..

maybe dia rindukan sy, n mungkin dia mau sy melawat dia..

sbb raya hari tu, sy tidak pergi ke kubur sbb 'cuti'..

insyaAllah..sy balik rmh weekend nie utk pergi berubat dgn ustaz..

nk bg sy tawar hati kt encik ex bf..

smgt sy dh hilng..

and, akn sy pergi ke kubur arwah..

insyaAllah...~

* nk try cari gmbr arwah bila balik nnti..dh xingt mane sy letak..

a msg from a daughter to a mother

"ma, tlg doakan ayong supaya cepat elok..ayong mmg betul2 hilang smgt dah nie..nk mkn pn xlalu..tlg ye ma..ma smbhyg pastu doa utk ayong.."

* i miss my mum..nk balik rmh skrg gak..:((

kak su,sy jd sedih bila dgr lagu itu :((

everytime when kak su's bf call her, sy jd tersentap

ingatkan si dia yg call sy, i forgot that i have unassigned the song in his phone number..

sumpah jd sedih tibe2 bile bf kak su call..

because she's still using that song..

bodo la kau jaja..

he wont call u anymore, so jgn nk perasan okeyh..

for now, sy xmau fkir psl dia n fokus kt assignment yg melambak mcm pop corn nie..

pop corn??eughh. ape pop corn pop corn nie..

dia dh mati dlm idup kau kn..

mati..bwt selama2nye..~

kesempatan kedua

kini ku sesali
nyata cintamu kasih
tak sempat terbaca hatiku
malah terabai olehku

lelah ku sembunyi
tutupi maksud hati
yang justeru hidup keranamu
dan bisa mati tanpamu

andai saja aku masih punya
kesempatan kedua
pasti akan ku hapuskan lukamu
menjagamu, memberimu segenap cinta

ku sedari tak selayaknya
selalu buatmu kecewa
kau lebih pantas bahagia
bahagia kerana cintaku

andai saja aku masih punya
kesempatan kedua
pasti akan ku hapuskan lukamu
menjagamu, memberimu segenap cinta

kau bawa bersamamu
sebelah hatiku separuh jiwaku
yang mampu sempurnakan aku

* i'm starting to like these indonesian songs, bila cinta bertasbih and kesempatan kedua.. the kesempatan kedua is like more to express my feeling..damn.

terlalu terluka..

susahnye mau melupakan dia..bkn xpernah cuba..bkn xpernah layan lelaki lain..cuma hati ini mmg dh syg kt dia sorg je..serabutnye kepala..serabut sgt..my life rase mcm tak complete..dulu dgn encik A,xdela teruk sebegini..i mean, agk terukla jgk tp this one is more worse than before..klw dulu ketika sdg bersedih krana ditinggalkn encik A,dia ada menemani..bwt saya senyum dan ketawa..tetapi skrg,siapa yg mau bwt sy senyum dan ketawa??ahh,tipula klw sy ckp sy sudah xsenyum n ketawa lg..mmg ada..tp slps itu, dia juga yg terlintas di fikiran..sy ini tidak faham bahasa ke??dia sudah byk kali bgtau, "i dont love u anymore..we cant get back together..dlm hati i tak ada sape2 skrg.." tetapi sy masih degil..msih juga mau sygkn dia..cintakan dia..nangis2 smpai mata bengkak..bodoh kan sy??sudah sebulan lebih..smpai bile nk jd mcm nie??final exam is juz around the corner..bleh ke sy kali nie??eughhh, to be honest..sem ini sy t'lmpau main2..sgt terlampau..ape nk jd dgn sy nie??disebabkan lelaki bodoh itu, i lost my focus..totally lost..jarang dtg ke class..assignment bwt main2..study lg la tak..mcm mane mau jwb final paper nnti??bg alsn kt lecturer, "sorry, i juz break off with my ex bf and i totally lost my focus till i cant do well in my exam.." mcm tu ke??mengarutlah!sudahlah..mau tido..ada 2 assignment kne anta this monday n i havent finished them yet..sempat ke siap esk??mesti bwt main2..eughhh, tido la..mata yg bengkak kerana t'lalu byk menangis td sape mau jwb nie??hodohnye sy ketika ini..:((

ketika cinta bertasbih

OMG i juz found this sweet song that has juz touched my heart..:') and i wish to watch the movie..